HOLDING IT ALL TOGETHER
What I thought would be a depressing day turned out to be a good day. It's been 17 days since we broke up and for the first time I managed the day really really well on my own. I woke up today still feeling down, went to church. I was inspired from the homily about revelation, the end of the world. The priest reminded us not to interpret everything on the bible literally but to dig deeply on what it's actually saying. The end of the world means pain and suffering...something I can relate with at the moment. Pain is actually not the end but a birth of something nice happening. Just like childbirth...there has to be pain first before experiencing a whole new and wonderful adventure. I felt light after the mass. Thought of grabbing bacon, eggs and toast for breakfast, my usual weekend breakfast with Craig but this time, on my own. I realized how I'm able to cope with what has happened. Doing things on my own like I used to two years ago. While enjoying my breakfast, I came to a decision that I should stop dwelling on my loss. If he needs time, time I'll give him but that doesn't mean my world will stop until he comes up with a definite decision. So I texted a friend to invite him for coffee in the afternoon.
After a meaningful breakfast, I headed to Phillip Cooke Aquatic Centre to inquire about swimming lessons. When I got there, I got so excited. I felt very optimistic on my return from my holidays. I then went to the Art Gallery since it's just nearby. I thought I might find something there about drawing lessons, didn't find any but anyway it was good that I dropped by, I ended up watching a dance performance about hindu ritual. Then I went to the mall to do some shopping. I bought a present for my nephew, a new pair of swimsuit and a book. And just when I got home, my friend who I invited called me to change plans about coffee...we ended up having a late lunch at this thai cafe at Randwick which was really good then to Coogee beach for a walk to burn out the calories.
Over all, it was a very very good day. I'm proud of myself that I've found the strength not to dwell on my emotions. What I hope is I'd remain to manage and continue to put myself all together coz this is just what I should be doing.
What I thought would be a depressing day turned out to be a good day. It's been 17 days since we broke up and for the first time I managed the day really really well on my own. I woke up today still feeling down, went to church. I was inspired from the homily about revelation, the end of the world. The priest reminded us not to interpret everything on the bible literally but to dig deeply on what it's actually saying. The end of the world means pain and suffering...something I can relate with at the moment. Pain is actually not the end but a birth of something nice happening. Just like childbirth...there has to be pain first before experiencing a whole new and wonderful adventure. I felt light after the mass. Thought of grabbing bacon, eggs and toast for breakfast, my usual weekend breakfast with Craig but this time, on my own. I realized how I'm able to cope with what has happened. Doing things on my own like I used to two years ago. While enjoying my breakfast, I came to a decision that I should stop dwelling on my loss. If he needs time, time I'll give him but that doesn't mean my world will stop until he comes up with a definite decision. So I texted a friend to invite him for coffee in the afternoon.
After a meaningful breakfast, I headed to Phillip Cooke Aquatic Centre to inquire about swimming lessons. When I got there, I got so excited. I felt very optimistic on my return from my holidays. I then went to the Art Gallery since it's just nearby. I thought I might find something there about drawing lessons, didn't find any but anyway it was good that I dropped by, I ended up watching a dance performance about hindu ritual. Then I went to the mall to do some shopping. I bought a present for my nephew, a new pair of swimsuit and a book. And just when I got home, my friend who I invited called me to change plans about coffee...we ended up having a late lunch at this thai cafe at Randwick which was really good then to Coogee beach for a walk to burn out the calories.
Over all, it was a very very good day. I'm proud of myself that I've found the strength not to dwell on my emotions. What I hope is I'd remain to manage and continue to put myself all together coz this is just what I should be doing.
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