Had a long day today....finally bought the perfect dining table that will fit my living area. It's a decent little table, space-saving good for up to 4 people. I'm just proud of what I've purchased. Since Dad's coming soon...I'm obliged to fully furnish my place to make my house look more of a home, presentable enough for Dad.

I'm so looking forward for Dad to arrive. The main reason why he's coming now is for my birthday. But it looks like he won't be making it on time as it's hard to get flights to Sydney. Craig's not gonna be with me either. Though I'm blessed with friends who would want to make sure I'll have an amazing day...it just feels pathetic. For the first time ever, I don't look forward to celebrating my birthday. Can I just skip that day and await for Dad's arrival? I feel like just sleeping it through that day. I know it's gonna be a depressing one. I'd rather be on my own on that day than pretend to my friends that I'm having a fabulous day with them when I know deep inside I still would feel alone and lonely. The restaurant's booked already but still haven't invited everyone yet. Maybe I can just cancel it and just sulk and be depressed. What's there to celebrate? It's just another day, a day when I'm just gonna get another year older. My last year on my 20's and still alone and single. And I just can picture myself celebrating that day....miserably! Just anticipating that day.....tears just won't stop falling! I don't want to be Saturday!!!!