I just need to be appreciative...but at the moment I can't. How could I, when I'm not even appreciated. There's a fine line between knowing and showing it. At the moment I don't see it. All I could hear is just complains, complains, and more complains about anything I can possibly not do. It's as if he fills up my needs too. The thing is, I just couldn't complain anymore. Coz if I do, I will be accused of being needy, demanding and just simply nagging. I just feel I'm walking on a very thin line, balancing myself and really careful not to fall. Anything I may say or do might just upset him. But stupid as may be, I've always been there for him. He need not say so, I just know when he needs me. His birthday, difficulty with work, a boring weekend, etc. I don't know if he appreciates it. If he does, he never said thank you voluntarily. Actually, he doesn't need to, just an act of appreciation would be good enough for me. Or maybe re-paying it by being there for me too. Like on my birthday, when I was sick. Times when I need him to be there too. He may have the highest IQ but he would have one of the lowest EQ. The thing is, now I have trained myself not to run to him straight away in times of difficulty since I'm not sure how I may come across. But this is not how I define a relationship....if it's just gonna be like this, I might as well be single again. It works the same, I'm still on my own anyway.