Home...makes you rekindle the past. I've got this guy best mate back in uni. He was my confidant. We were very close. A lot of people mistook us as being a couple. My sister loved him because he really looked after me. He was very protective of me...he would get jealous if guys would try hitting on me...which is funny and flattering. For some reason, our relationship didn't really go beyond friendship. Even though there was a point where I did grow feelings for him. He was vocal about it but I wasn't. I didn't enteratain that feeling because I didn't want to ruin the friendship. We were in a big group of friends back then and I thought we are better of that way. Actually, it was more of a love triangle. His best friend was also hitting on me....it's that complicated so I'd rather keep the peace. I didn't tell him until I went back to Sydney in 2003. I told him that of course just to let him know. Didn't have any intentions whatsoever since by then I didn't feel that way anymore. I just told him just a matter-of-factly. Anyway, we talked recently...it's just nice how I've maintained that fondness for him. I'm just proud how successful he is now with his career. I'm happy how despite the distance, there's still this bond that we have. It makes me wonder what could have been...but then, I'm happy where I am now. We've got our seperate lives now....his life here and my life down under....but both single.

Speaking of rekindling...the guys in my life....they come and they go but there's this guy who every heartache I go through, I'd go back to him no matter what. He knows me enough to make me comfortable to confide in him. I guess it's true what they say...first love never dies....though I don't have any romantic feelings for him anymore...I'm certain about that!