RHEA

Just got home from dinner and drinks with my high school friends. It's nice to catch up with them. When they brought me home, it dawned on me that I am leaving soon. I should be used to saying goodbye to friends and family but up until now I'm not. If only I can have the best of both worlds. It's a bit ironic how a few days ago I felt I had enough of Manila. Just seeing my parents bitter about each other was enough for me to miss the peace and quiet life down under. I may be alone in Sydney but I know I'm better off there. Philippines has nothing much to offer. At lunch with Dad today. I asked him if I would have stayed here, would have I missed out on any opportunities...his answer was a straight no. He said he was glad that I decided to leave. We both agreed that life here is very difficult...it seems that people want to do so much but they're limited...it seems that everyone's stuck. It's all about the economy. It never stops to deteriorate. I know I should be patriotic but instead, I leave my motherland for greener pasture but I don't think you can blame me. I am just one of the many Filipinos who left. Anyway, if you have the opportunity, why not? I guess I should consider myself lucky. If it wouldn't been for my struggles in Australia, I don't think I'd be as self sufficient as I am now. Australia can offer me the financial security and career opportunities I am enjoying at the moment but there is no denying that I am a Filipino, Philippines is still my home. This is my root. Despite the shortcomings, I carry it in my heart.