Wouldn't it be nice to come home after a long and tiring day at work still feeling light because you know that there's someone by your side who'll always be there for you. When you know there's someone assisting you in carrying the burden. Just someone there by your side makes a big difference on your perspective about life.

A thought crossed my mind just now? Why am I here in the first place? What for? When I just can go home. Maybe if I'd do, who knows, after all those flights back and forth, I'd still settle in my home country after all?!

I just wish I can totally say I'm very very ok but I can't. There are these low episodes in my life still. Though recurrence is not as often, but still, they exist. I just wish the episodes are gone coz once they are then that's when I can totally say I'm very very ok.

Someone once told me, during a break up, you have to distinguish where your sadness is coming from...is it because you miss the person or you miss the feeling? If it's just the feeling you miss then it means you don't love the person as much. If it's the person, than that's a different story. I know for a fact where my sadness is from.....as if there's anything I can do about this. God knows how hard I tried. All I have to do now is just wait till the sun shines on me again....there are things beyond my control.....at the moment, I know I don't want to be mad anymore, I don't wanna look back and point my finger to people. I've been praying that He'd take away the pain because it just makes the load a lot heavier. So far He's been answering my prayer. Right now, I'm just finding again my purpose in life....I seemed to be lost again............