As what they say...the truth, no matter how hard to accept, it will set you free. Seeing the reality, it pains me that I know what I should do about it. Like a moth attracted to light, if you can't see any, if you don't feel any warmth, what can you do? You can't force yourself into it because you see and feel nothing...it's all darkness you see and coldness you feel. No matter how much you desire for the warmth, you just shiver until you get tired and find another place where there is comfort. Without a choice, it just pushes you away...further away....no matter how much you struggle to stay...you just get exhausted...nature just forces you to a direction you're not even willing to follow. It takes its own course and you just go with the flow...hesitantly.