In fairness to my ex, I'm sure he appreciated me but just wasn't that vocal about it. I'm sure he did love me coz I felt that but just didn't show me how much. I'm sure he believed in my capabilities but just failed to express them. And I'm pretty sure he would also be thinking of the things I failed to do as a partner. We had differences and so as any other couple. For sure there are! Partnership is composed of two individuals with different personalities, different background so it's but natural to have differences. But the challenge is how they handle those differences. Well, in our case, I guess we failed on that.
It's been four months since we've broken up. I'd say by now, I've grown past the bitterness. I see things at a better angle now. I am more rational than emotional. I'm at a state where I can go out and party knowing that I won't be doing something foolish because I am a lot more stable, emotionally. At the moment, I feel I'm just in the middle of crossing a river. I'm half way through but still thinking whether I'd cross all the way through or go back. Either way, I don't feel any pressure to decide now. But I know for a fact that if I decide to go back, I'll make sure the water would be a lot smoother, a lot calmer and won't be crossing it alone. For the meantime, I'm just enjoying what life's offering me. I'm happy that my ex and I are talking, not much tension between us as we had in the last few months. At the same time, I am satisfied with my status as a single person. Of course, there's no denying that I would want to still work it out with him, but I am aware that it's a process. More than anything else, we need to understand each other more, where we are coming from. Stop demanding and start accepting the other person for who he/she is and not what you want him/her to be. These are just some of the things we were both guilty of. This is something I can't rush. It may or may not work out, who knows. I may decide to hold on or just move on. Either way, I know I will still be ok. But no pressure to decide just as yet. Just letting things happen one day at a time.
It's been four months since we've broken up. I'd say by now, I've grown past the bitterness. I see things at a better angle now. I am more rational than emotional. I'm at a state where I can go out and party knowing that I won't be doing something foolish because I am a lot more stable, emotionally. At the moment, I feel I'm just in the middle of crossing a river. I'm half way through but still thinking whether I'd cross all the way through or go back. Either way, I don't feel any pressure to decide now. But I know for a fact that if I decide to go back, I'll make sure the water would be a lot smoother, a lot calmer and won't be crossing it alone. For the meantime, I'm just enjoying what life's offering me. I'm happy that my ex and I are talking, not much tension between us as we had in the last few months. At the same time, I am satisfied with my status as a single person. Of course, there's no denying that I would want to still work it out with him, but I am aware that it's a process. More than anything else, we need to understand each other more, where we are coming from. Stop demanding and start accepting the other person for who he/she is and not what you want him/her to be. These are just some of the things we were both guilty of. This is something I can't rush. It may or may not work out, who knows. I may decide to hold on or just move on. Either way, I know I will still be ok. But no pressure to decide just as yet. Just letting things happen one day at a time.
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